I want to just have a poetry
Filled with the words I did not make
Why does it feel like an excuse to not write?
My wall will be filled with the words
and keep proving to me that it has all been said
Where does a writer
Is it in the words of others?
In that place of her deep heart’s longing?
Is there anything unique to bring –of value to the world?
There must be no? — Otherwise what is the point?
Life cannot be solely redundant, can it?
For years I have been quoting Viktor Frankl for saying “He who has a why to live, can withstand almost any how” – only to realize it was actually Friedrich Nietzsche who said it and I am not even sure it is the exact quote anymore, except, it is what I kept from the book.
Yet these very words were the foundation to inspire so many – when inspiration was needed.
These very words helped to save Frankl’s life. And in may ways saved mine when I read Frankl’s book “Man’s Search for Meaning”.
I have no idea about so many things.
All I know is that writing makes me feel something real.
It is like an invisible string that releases the unknown to the known.
That potential feeling, always on the edge of our understanding.
That place where spirit meets imagination meets words,
Yet it is not always good when it shows up.
And maybe not always meant to be read.
I fear redundancy
I fear narcissism
I fear being simply awful at it
But those before me encourage posting it
And sharing it
And trusting that invisible hand
That will take the words
And place them at the right place
At the right time
And touch what needs touching
[I’d like to think that]
And truth is even if it touched none but the paper
On which it was placed, something happened
And that can be enough
I fear- fear itself, but it has also been my prisoner eluding me from
Answering the voice that helps me reveal the sparks of truth where redundancy evolves into that thing only the one soul placing it out there can do
Reading also makes me thirst for more stories.
[In the end – all we have are our stories.]
And so I write until I can write well. What other choice do I have?
And yes I shall build my wall – from the words of the great ones
Who saved my life over and over again
Both can coexis