“Anne: But have you ever noticed one encouraging thing about me, Marilla? I never make the same mistake twice.
Marilla: I don’t know as that’s much benefit when you’re always making new ones.”
— L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables
Anne was my childhood muse, inspiration, heroine and fed my potential. She allowed me to dream big and own my differences. I was a very contemplative, spiritual, studious girl, who had a rich inner world and wanted to ‘be free’to not meet traditional expectations — for instance — to be single instead of marrying young, to study in a different place with new people, places and things. To leave my safety net and live on the edge of my own understanding. To explore diverse ideas and self expressions. I spent twenty two years of my life in NYC doing just that . I failed and succeeded, learned and loved, and rose out of ashes and dust when it was necessary; as my heart broke open several times and reformed itself into the mosaic it is.
Lately I remind myself that these my life is not yet over. Each new mistake or failure is just a version of an evolving thing. I want to be present enough, mindful enough, — to live so many more stories. My inner Anne is still with me.